The 2019 Grammy nominee, 25, took dwelling high honors on the ceremony, with Patti LaBelle presenting her with the award for Lady of the 12 months in New York Metropolis on Thursday, December 6.
After repeatedly telling the gang they didn’t have to face for her, Grande started her emotional speech. “I need to thank Billboard for this unbelievable honor, I really feel fully undeserving and I don’t … thanks, it’s really insane.”
Whereas on stage, the pop star additionally addressed the struggles she’s encountered in her private life over the previous 12 months: Grande’s ex-boyfriend Mac Miller handed away in September and she or he break up from her ex-fiancé, Pete Davidson, one month later.
“I need to say that I discover it attention-grabbing that this has been one in all, like, the perfect years of my profession and, like, the worst of my life,” she informed the gang. “Um, I’m not saying that for sympathy, I’m simply saying that as a result of I really feel like lots of people would take a look at somebody in my place proper now, I suppose, like, Lady of the 12 months , an artist that might be at her peak … and assume, ‘She’s actually bought her s–t collectively, you realize? Like, she’s actually on it, she’s bought all of it. And, um, I do, however so far as my private life goes, I actually don’t know what the f–okay I’m doing. So yeah, it’s been a really conflicting one.”
The “Thank U, Subsequent” singer then teared up whereas reminding followers who really feel misplaced of their lives that they aren’t alone. “I simply need to say, when you’re somebody on the market who has no thought what this subsequent chapter’s gonna carry, you’re not alone in that,” she continued as her voice started to crack. “Ew, I’m not gonna cry, that’s actually silly … Sorry, I’ve to … cease that instantly, that’s annoying. I’m not gonna cry, that’s actually annoying. Ew. Nah, that’s actually gross, I’m not gonna do this.”
Miller, whom Grande had break up from in Might, died on the age of 26 on September 7. The songstress, who had since moved on with Saturday Night time Stay star Davidson, was “completely heartbroken” by the information, a supply informed Us Weekly in September. She ended her engagement with the comic in October 4 months after he had proposed.
The “Breathin” crooner closed her speech with a hope to deal with her personal well-being within the coming 12 months. “I’m actually trying ahead to embracing no matter occurs and no matter comes my method … I look ahead to hopefully studying to present among the love and forgiveness that I’ve given away so frivolously and simply to males previously to myself, hopefully, this 12 months.”
Grande tweeted an identical sentiment on December 1. “Really … I don’t need no ‘subsequent,’” she wrote in a since-deleted tweet that referenced her hit observe, including, “Real love doesn’t exist … keep in mind after I was a hopeless romantic lmfaoooOO.”
She later defined herself, tweeting, “Real love would possibly exist i used to be simply hungry,” she tweeted, including, “however nonetheless, f–okay that.”